So, I haven't spoken about this here, but here goes... I am pregnant again! A very unexpected blessing in our home that has brought about a lot of emotions. Fear, excitement, nervousness, happiness, feelings of inadequacy, joy, relief that God has it all in his hands. I know for certain that I could not mother 5 children successfully on my own. Thankfully I don't have to. My God will supply all my needs. And as we learned watching the new Veggie Tales movie, The Pirates Who Don't Do Anything, when God asks us to do something, He provides everything we need to be successful.
Thankfully, because as I started to think about having another child the fear became almost instantly overwhelming. How can I possibly do this again? I often feel like I am barely treading water as it is. But that is usually because I am trying to rely on my own strength instead of asking God for help. As I have prayed over the past weeks, I have started to be able to rest in Him. Knowing that I am in God's hands and I don't have to do anything alone.
As my good friend reminded me yesterday:
"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go." Joshua 1:9
Oh I have something else to be excited about! One of my girlfriends (who isn't telling she is preggo yet, but isn't a blogger) is due the same week as me! She was not planning on any more kids either, but I think we are both excited to have a belly buddy. Someone who we can complain to that none of our pants fit already, but we are not far enough along for maternity clothes. I am gonna get so fat this time, I can tell already. ugh.
Oh, I am due the first week of September. And although my kids are super excited about the baby, my 10 year old is not excited that he will have to share his birthday month. The baby is actually due on his birthday.