Tuesday, October 27, 2009


Already this morning, Baby Zed has said 2 new words. Naana for banana, and daa-er for diaper. He is a talker! He talks all day long, every day and when he is not talking he is singing. He brings us so much joy.
Of course there is the whole not sleeping through the night thing. I have only slept through the night a handful of times in the last 14 months. And it is taking a toll on me. I am a wee bit tired and my kids might say I am a bit grumpy. I can feel wrinkles growing on my face from exhaustion. And I have learned how to live on caffeine. Not something I aspired to, but a fact of my life none-the-less. It wouldn't be so bad if it was just Baby Zed who was night waking, but it is not. My 4 year old Girly and my 5.8 (he is very exacting about his age) year old Monkey are both still getting up at night occasionally. Most nights there are 2 kids trying to get in my bed around 3 or 4. sigh.
Regardless, I adore them and their sleepy cuddles. I have a hard time booting any of them back to their beds at night, which has probably compounded the problem. I am now trying to make myself get up and put them back to bed, or at least put myself in one of their beds!
I think this sleeplessness has something to do with the not blogging thing, I find it really hard to look at the computer screen or concentrate when my eyeballs are sandy and I have the brain pain (migraines). I have a million posts in my head, but they are not making their way to screen or paper. I may have even forgotten how to write...
I do adore you dear bloggy friends, I hope to see more of you. Sweet dreams all. I plan on taking a nap.

Tuesday, October 06, 2009

New, but not.

I was driving home from the airport this morning and was just overcome with my adoration of autumn. The colours made my heart sing. I love the new-oldness of fall. The year is getting to be middle-aged, but it takes on all this gorgeous shading and personality and light. I hope that I will be made newly beautiful as I age, resplendent with graciousness and radiating confidence and joy. My son keeps telling me that at 34.5 I am almost middle aged, so I hope to see some of these fruits soon. You know, stuff other than those random grey strands and crow's feet. I am sure not feeling that new right now...

I do have a new computer though. (how's that for an awkward segue?) It is actually my old laptop with my son's laptop screen. We both had broken laptops, (remember this!) so my dad put them together and now I have a working computer with an intact screen!
Joy of joys! The first thing I did was put Photoshop back on so that I can play with my pictures and scrapbook. I can't wait!

My favourite photo subject is snoring beside me, baby Zed has a bit of a cold and is thankfully taking an extra nap right now. Poor snurgelly guy. We went to take some fall photos in the river valley this past weekend and he has snoogies in every one. nice. What was really nice was that not one photo turned out because not one of my 5 angels were the least bit cooperative. sigh. Oh well, I guess I can just comfort myself with the knowledge that every photo shows who they really are. I will have to share them with you tomorrow, I hope they make you smile.