Last night was a pretty exciting one in our eldest son's hockey season. His team, affectionately know as the 'Bad News Bears' finally won their first game of he season! They started the year with a bunch of small 13 year old boys, most of whom knew very little about hockey. Some could barely skate. They were losing games 13 - 1. Over the last 3 or 4 games they have really been pulling it together and on the weekend they only lost 6 - 5, my son scoring his first goal of the season! Last night they won in a deciding victory, 10 - 4! I think the parents were just as excited as the kids, what an awesome esteem boost. Now they know they can win, I think that is pretty important. They went through a time where they honestly believed that there was no way they could win a game.
Now they know better, and they played like a team. They passed, they spoke to one another on the ice, they made amazing plays. It was very exciting to watch!
My dh is supposed to come home tonight. I so need him to come home tonight. I am losing my mind. I feel like I am unable to deal with the children very effectively anymore. I am losing my temper much more quickly that I would like. The kids are whiny and disobedient. I feel like whining myself. Dh has been working out of town for more than a month and it looks like he is not going to come home tonight. They want him to stay til the job is finished on the fifteenth. When I heard that my heart sank. I felt like I would not be able to cope, especially through another busy weekend of hockey.
But, my God is good. His strength is all I need, and He will help me even for something so little as a busy weekend on my own. And He is so good to have given this work for my husband now. It was a very lucrative contract for my dh and it being extended these few days means that I get my dh home for the Christmas season! He won't need to work til the new year, and I am trusting that God will provide abundant work for his company in January.
So I can deal with another few days on my own. I will try very hard to not make my dh feel bad for being away and to have a thankful heart. I am going to try to knock some things off of my to-do list and prepare for Christmas, so that I can enjoy my time with my dh and our family to the fullest.
Oh! If you pray, please say a little one for my 10 year old. He has croup, quite badly :( Even though it is the middle of the day, his breathing is quite laboured. He always amazes me when he is sick. He rarely complains and he seems to have a sunnier demeanor than usual. When he was small he would get terrible ear infections, but we would never know until he got an eye infection. I am sure God let him get an eye infection every time so that we would treat his bursting ear drums and what must have been significant pain. Not a whimper, no tugging on the ear, nothing to alert us that his ear was so infected that the ear drum was usually moments from bursting when we arrived at the doctor for conjunctivitis. Anyway, he is a bit whimpery today, so we know he is pretty sick. I pray he is better soon and that it ends with him.
Update: well I failed miserably on the not whining to my dh about him staying at work. He called and told me that the woman he is working for came up to him and said that all the other contractors wanted to go home and would he please stay on to help finish the job. When he started to tell me that he said that he would stay there to help them out, I said, "I.. uh.. just.. no.. ugh... argh... why... AAHH!" and I hung up the phone. Then when he called back I was just too mad to listen, so I yelled that at him and hung up again. Now I feel bad. I could not even explain that I felt so awful that he didn't just say that he wanted to go home too. That I wanted him to be my hero instead of a hero to his client. I get all the practical reasons for him to stay. I do, I get that he is making contacts for future business to come his way, I get that he is making money so we can get ahead, I get that if he does this then he gets to spend a few weeks at home at Christmas. But I just want him here. I want him to choose me. I know that he really is choosing me for the long term by doing this, but at that moment I felt otherwise. Anyways, I am just a big whiner who misses her husband. Wah! He said he would come home to sleep tonight though, so I feel better about that. I guess I should get my housework done then:)