Monday, December 08, 2008

Thankful, even in thanklessness

My hubby called at lunch today. I went up to my room to try and find a quiet place to nurse Zed and talk to Brent. Zed was really tired and having a hard time calming and going to sleep. He kept arching his back and screaming (turns out he was trying to have a bm ;p). Girly came in and started trying to make Zed feel better. This comprised of her turning his head and yelling in his face and then jumping on the bed yelling. Brent said he had to turn down his phone. All I could do was laugh, I couldn't turn down the noise.

I repeatedly asked Girly to stop jumping, to which she laughed and jumped out of reach. Then she hit her head on the chandelier. She started screaming. More out of anger than hurt and then she thought she should come and take it out on me and Zed. When I told her to leave him alone and tried to comfort her, she scooted away and blew me a raspberry!

I sighed to my hubby about how thankless my job is. They either think I am an ogre or an idiot most days. She hurts herself, then is mean to me as I try to comfort her and she blows me a raspberry! From the biggest child I get huge eye rolls and sighs when trying to do my job. From the second, I get the doe eyes when I call him on anything. He seems to think that if he opens his eyes wide enough he can get away with anything.

We laughed and then he told me how thankful he was for all I do. I then had to laugh harder as I asked him why, if he was so thankful, did he leave all the crap from the bathroom on the hall floor and about a few other surprises he left for me this morning. ...big sigh...

There definitely are days and moments when motherhood seems thankless. But the rewards are too numerous to mention, though I may not see the fruition of some for many years to come. One of the best things about my job is the absolute knowledge that I am doing exactly what I am supposed to be doing. This is God's plan for me for this season. This long season!

11 comments:

  1. I'm trying like crazy to feel thankful and I'm not doing as well as I normally do. I think it's just been too much for me these days. I guess I'm calling "Uncle." Think anyone'll listen? ;)

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  2. Oh I know the eye rolls and the raspberries. the whole spectrum, eh? Gotta keep the perspective to make it through some days.

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  3. I am just so darn proud of you for keeping your sense of humor through all of that. Sometimes I laugh, but sometimes it is all I can do not to break down and cry during those moments...

    It is a thankless job, but I am ever so thankful for it.

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  4. Lori's right, you're right, it is a thankless job, but I have to keep reminding myself how lucky am that I've been given the opportunity to do it. And how much I'll miss it once they're grown. Thanks for the reminder honey, and I hope tomorrow is a better day.

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  5. It's easy to get stuck in the everyday (I do it all the time)...but I love that we are growing and molding the next generation. What a privilege, even though it doesn't always feel like one. Thanks for sharing. Motherhood is certainly not for the faint of heart :)

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  6. Can I just tell you how funny this sounds from far away at the distance of a 13, 19 and 23 year old? I remember it all. The screaming arching baby, the head that hits something, that screaming cacophony and a barking dog to complete the riot. I know you know, but it will be all quiet before you know it.
    You are in a sacred space, even if it is a little hard to hear in there....

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  7. Amen, Sister! :) Motherhood is a thankless job.

    Your household & reactions of your kids sound exactly like what I face on a daily basis around here. It is comforting to know that someone else is dealing with the attitudes & doe eyes(w/ tears & yelling sprinkled in, too!). It can also feel really lonely somedays.. I am so thankful for blogging friends! :)

    Keep your chin up!

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  8. Yes, indeed- a thankless job. And it seems even more so in the colder months when everyone is stuck inside. Sigh* Im right there with ya.

    But I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world

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  9. If you can think of benefits and rewards of motherhood at a time like that, I applaud you! It was during those moments I had a hard time coming up with anything positive.

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  10. Amen! Before my kids, my mom would tell me that it was a thankless job and I didn't quite see it. Now with two boys at hand, I see her point. But you are exactly right, the rewards make it all worth it! I wouldn't trade this for a thing! It just feels right.

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  11. Are you sure you aren't blogging about my house? 3 1/2 year old and 2 moth old here!

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